Ok, so I've been slacking off the xanga lately.    "My b!"  As some of you have noticed my lingo is a little different in college "when in Rome..."  So yeah, I might have gotten into trouble from Risa when I "peaced her out".  Anyways...a lot and then not a lot has happened since I last wrote something.  Work was awesome this past summer, I really miss all my kids.  Although it did tend to be exhausting watching 25+ kids all at once.  I miss it like crazy though.  I miss my family even more though.  I ended work a little early to watch my sister.  She really likes me now, which is totally awesome in my opinion since she didn't remember me at first.  She's walking around the house going "mo?" now though since that's what she calls me and she doesn't know where I went.  Which is kind of sad, but I'm glad she remembers me.  She's super smart too, been walking since about 8/9 months and isn't talking, but she knows words pretty well and my mom taught her some sign language so she can communicate really well. 

Then summer ended, which really sucked.  Somehow it seems a lot shorter than it did in highschool even though its over a month longer.  I did all kinds of crazy things too, well crazy in my opinion.  Swam in waikiki in our underwear when we were "tipsy", got to learn how to drive a bobcat and do tons of yard work, got obsessed with the derby game in D&B, went on 4 dates with my "army guy" Sean who is such a sweety, but nothing came of it.  Partly because I didn't want anything to.  We just live different lives, and when I become involved with someone I expect them to live up to certain standards.  Hes cute and super nice, and I don't expect someone living that lifestyle and being so far away from me to be faithful.  And that would just be something I would expect.  But we had fun, saw a few movies, went to the beach.  Though I was kind of shy so may have sent more uninterested signals than I meant to.  But I can't help that.  Besides the fact I thought there was someone at school I really liked, but I'm not quite so sure about that anymore. 

Setons has been a blast.  I'm meeting tons of new people, and even though none of my best friends are here I'm pretty content and busy.  And the knights...omg, can we say hott?    Some of them at least.  I have a major thing for one of them too.  We nicknamed him "Kevin G"...after the guy from Mean Girls bc he says "and the girls will all say ooooooooh Kevin G" and his name fits perfectly into it and Kels can't help but tease me about it.  But we'll have to see, cause this guy definately has access to girls whose social retardedness when it comes to dating is not quite as extreme as mine.    Kels is working on me tho...we're determined I have a bf b4 Charity Ball, and that's in November.  Esp since I have to go as Knights and Setons put it on. 

Classes are ok.  Not too hard, but a lot harder than I would like them.  I'm going to have to bust my ass this semester...Calc 3, O Chem 2, Cell Bio, Japanese (which is easy after Iolani since it's 101  ) and Jazz Dance (which I feel awkward in since I've never taken a dance class, but is really fun).  Though I've recently become obsessed with these computer games which is really bad because I'm procrastinating like crazy. 

Oh, and on an awkward note, this 23 year old firefighter started talking to me on AIM.  It's kinda creepy actually since he's really flirtation and seems like a perv.  He's prob like some gross 80 year old man.  But I'm being a bitch to him so it's kinda amusing.  Though more creepy.  I feel bad blocking people though.  Oh wells.  Well, I have tons of homework so I'm going to get to it.  Feel free to call me (if you're special enough to have my number!), I really miss everyone from back home, though it feels oddly good to be back too.  Well, love you all! 

I miss school...but am soooo glad to be home.  Especially to see friends and fam.  Nothing can ever measure up to the people I left here, and the comfort I get just being around them.  No matter how much they tease me I know that here is the one place I can be myself without fear.  And my sister...oh shes sooo adorable.  And smart!!  She started walking before she was even 9 months and hardly crawls now that she's 10.  And most babies dont even start till 14 months.  So she's my gifted child.  And so hyper and just fun to be around.  Though exhausting too.  And I do miss school on some level...I miss it for the people (and the freedom) the most.  And the people I miss aren't really the one's you would expect.  Though everyone is keeping in touch with me.    Well, those that care and that I care most about.  And while Im home hopefully I'll come to grips with my life, and everything at college that confused the heck out of me.  But in the meantime this is a time to step back, play with a bunch of little kids (and get paid for it!!!!), make some money and recuperate b4 I go back.  Setons is going to be a blast, and hopefully my love life will recieve a little spice (working on it over IM already. ) and O Chem 2 doesn't kick my ass as royally as O Chem 1.  Oh, and that I don't gain my frosh 15 over the summer...can't go back to my crush looking all chubby...haha.  Well, hope everyone else is having a fun time and not working too hard.  Love ya! 

Ok, so Xanga has just turned into an online venting journal...which may bore the hell out of everyone but hey, noone has to read this.  So it's almost finals and I have a huge paper due tomorrow, which is why I would choose today to update.  I get home on the 7th, thank god, though things here aren't that horrible (unless you count o chem which is just a pain in the ass) and though the drama can become overwhelming college has its benefits and I know being back home is gonna be awesome but really different.  And Emmaleigh just started walking, which is so exciting.  I hope she kind of remembers me, or at least likes me. 

But as usual in my life, there is boy drama.  Eric I've totally written off, there are only so many times you can make a girl cry and then act socially retarded before she writes you off as a mistake.  But I do kind of like his friend, which is awkward since they are friends and I don't want to give the impression he's a rebound or something.  Or that I'm fickle...and I also don't know if I'm just incredibly lonely or ready for a relationship.  I think I'm ready, but I guess past mistakes make me wary.  And I don't even know if he likes me...so blahby blah blah.  Besides the fact I have a week left of school and don't want to start a long distance relationship NOW.  That would just be retarded of me.  I really want to know what he's thinking though.  Damn guys and their uncomplicatedness I have a tendency to complicate.  Anyways, that's the most excitement in my life recently, and the source of the most confusion (excluding o chem again of course). 

Oh and I recently started "playing" football...which basically involves me and my roomie attempting to toss a football to eachother.  We really started it because boys have invited us to play and we are both too embarrassed.  Anyways, last weekend we were passing it around and she jammed her finger.  So that activity, while completely awesome, has been curbed due to her finger that is still black and blue.  It really sucks.  I was also given some alcohol the other night, which I have no idea what to do with since I don't drink.  So yay for me there too.  Well, who knows, I might get drunk at some point (though I'm skeptical).  Hope everyone else is doing well and I'm back in less than a week!!!